decir lo que nunca he dicho

 palabras que nunca serán dichas, son palabras muertas

aquellas que no sobreviven más allá de nuestra garganta

son las historias que nunca fueron fuera de nuestra mente

son los cuentos que no cuentas, que solo sientes

son los fetos muertos de una pasión

son los hijos de la cobardía

esta es la eterna fuga: el silencio

y de nuevo, la misma conversación que nunca fue

la misma pared en medio del camino

y de nuevo, la misma conversación que nunca fue

aquella que resolvería todo lo nunca dicho

más palabras perecen en mi lengua

mar

Lenta y sigilosamente te aproximas

Devorando la arena.

Y quieto, me miras.

Retrocedes, te aproximas,

Esa cadencia se volvió un baile eterno.

No sé ya cuántas veces he intentado levantarme,

e irme para siempre.

Perdí la cuenta.

Sé que intento apoyar el peso en las manos para levantar al resto de mi cuerpo,

que cansado cae de nuevo en la arena...

Será tu olor salado,

O la brisa áspera de tu aliento,

Estoy anclada en la playa.

Tal vez ya me perdí en tu inmensidad

Y aún no me di cuenta...

del libro de la juventud

y no es malo
que tus besos
se descascaren de mis labios 
como aquella piel caduca que las serpientes botan
en su camino a la eternidad
mis labios resquebrajados botan esa capa fina, 
traslúcida,
mínima,
que habiendo cumplido su cometido
se queda en el suelo
y perece en el olvido...

2007

lioness

I honor my father by creating... by shinning...

del libro de la juventud

el último aliento antes del salto
a un paso del hambriento abismo
el temor que parece esparcirse por mis venas
me obliga a respirar profundo
para devorar el aire
un sólo suspiro 
antes de iniciar el salto
lo infinito me espera
en un instante,
el designio llega a ser concreto
más agudo e intenso 
es el temor a no dar el paso
éste es sólo el primero
el resto traerá otras emociones 
este es el temor a no vivir
me rehuso a continuar con la duda de una posibilidad inclusa

2007

--

in a hardened heart
a crack is a gate
a thread is a bridge
a dry faced god
greets with a grin
the shell then cracked
and I slipped in.

from the book of water

Una explosión en el cielo
Fuego blanco
Viene de lo alto

Rayo solar
Veo blanco, la nada
Y el silencio

No somos más
Que Figuras de barro
Efímeras ante tus rayos

Estatuas que perecen
con tu terrible paso
un diluvio brillante

Siento mi sangre secarse
Siento mi alma evaporarse
Esculturas resquebrajadas

¿Y que queda de mí?
Nada queda de lo fui
Son tus palabras aire

Y cenizas al viento
Soy negra y soy nada
Somos almas quemadas

Tú, 

el sol que desintegra
Todo cuanto posee la tierra
Ella yace negra

Lóbrega explosión
Fuego blanco de lo alto

¿Que queda de mí?
El bosquejo del impacto
Dibujado en el suelo

Solo un negro rastro
La silueta de ésta muñeca
Eso deja tu paso

021107

from the book of water

If I could be the sun
Yellow and serene
The world would revolve around me

Then you would have to be
The Universe itself
What else? Black and deep

If I could only be
The mighty yellow sun
If this wish could come true
Forever in time
I would live inside you
Me, mighty and serene
And forever you
Would wrap your darkness around me
In an infinite embrace
That would never, ever end....

092901

from the book of water

I am water

I am blue, 

I am green

I am liquid,

I am steam 

I am Ice

Too many things

More than what you see

More than what you realize

Many have held me

But just for a while

For no one has kept me

I've slipped through their hands.

--

I am a child, I am crone

A newborn, a corpse

A nun, a man with a gun 

A lover, a hater 

A poem, a letter 

A kiss, a tear

A river, an ocean 

Far too loud

To ever be ignored

Far too interesting

To ever be bored

Far too much

To fit in one vessel

Far too elusive

To ever grasp my nature

Far too complex

To understand my essence

Far too much mine

To ever be somebody else’s

102301

--

what Uranus does not bend
Pluto will melt
or Saturn will break.

7

He was Hermes made into flesh

I was the West Wind

He devoured anything in his path

Anything, including me.

Gods punish us in a wicked manner

Making me thick

Making him madder

He hit me

And it felt like a kiss

He killed me

Just to die with me

12

In the middle of the desert he stood

Twistedly proud

Arms open,

As if embracing the sky.

I never could fathom him

It was all fog and sand.

He was so beautiful

So simple, he was complex

Deep and extensive.

As I got closer I never realized

How sharp his green leaves were

Dark and stealth

The desert dagger penetrated my chest

That spring no bitter white flower blossomed

They were all sweet and red

And then the rest of me dripped on the sand

Of the Southwestern desert.

10

Sun God

You were perfection

A beauty so pure

Utterly blinding me

That could never endure

I drank myself to sleep

A dream so deep

It robbed me of all peace.

Then the clouds came.

I ran my fingers on the contour of your shadow

Until the day I pricked it

It bursted into diamonds

That splattered throughout the wetlands

Now the specks of light smile at me

The milky way lies down on the ground

What was up, now is down

An eternal night

Tonight, It is cold and dark without you

And yet the stars seemed to have been poured through the valleys of our homeland

As if a path was conjured.

There is magic in your absence

There is relief in your void

I feel the soil

Wet and enraged

One foot leaves the ground

The other one meets it

The stars now lead the way

I feel free

Now I see.

6

I am Aurora

I am the Dragon

I am the Champion

Forever dancing in a circle

Entranced by the beauty of life.

5

I am the “M” in “Magic”,

I am a Guardian of the West,
I am a Watcher of this Quarter,

I am the White Lotus that rises,

Beyond the water.

Dark are my roots.

Light is my soul.

I open my petals

To drink thy beam of love, My Lord

I shine for thee…

4

When Pluto enters the stage
Bow and say:
“Amen...
May Thy will be done
I am Yours to take.
Rip what you may,
Do with me as you please
Forgive my devilish deeds,
Pour mercy on this poor soul,
For I am willing to change”
I shall be transformed.
This is your design.
This is my becoming.

3

Sun

Before thee I kneel

Burn my flesh

Crystallize my blood

Dry away my tears

You shine ever so bright

My flesh turns into ash

You reach my bones

You burn my soul

You are bright

You are light

You burn

You shine

But not for me...

2

I love you,

Because you are brutal.

I love,

Because you are beautiful.

My fingers travel through your edges,

So sharp.

Through the depths

Ebb and flow

An acid razor blade

Scratching my surface

I will never be the same

1

I fell on my knees and into the black

A strong grip has turned me into stardust

And from them on I float

No longer lost

Disintegrating into thin air

Finally l am light

No weight to pin me down

For there is no burden

nor shoulders to carry it

I am nothing

Yet I am everything

The void has reached the edge

Overflowing the cup

Dripping slowly

To cover it all

No longer can one see it shine

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